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sharon's avatar

Well that was a very interesting first chapter. I’ve never really thought before about the ‘me’ of my interior life versus the ‘me’ out there in the world. But they are indeed different people! I enjoyed the section where Moscardo is trying to ‘catch’ himself in the mirror. I remember doing this myself - though without all the philosophical thought - when I was about five. I’d try to move fast enough to see myself moving in the mirror. Unsurprisingly it never worked! I also thought it was interesting to be reading this in the age of social media when so many people are so invested in filming, documenting and seeing themselves ‘from the outside’. This section spoke to me:

“I could never meet, the one others saw living, but was invisible to me. I wanted to see and know him too, the way others saw and knew him.”

I wondered if this sense of knowing ourselves as others do is the motivation behind the compulsion to tik tok every moment for many people.

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Dana • Dostoevsky Bookclub's avatar

Thank you so much for the article! It's so interesting to read both the novel and your comments, and reflect on them.

In life, I'm also often accompanied by thoughts similar to those described by the novel's protagonist, but mainly I've pondered: "How can you prove that you are really you in this body, and not someone else?" And I haven't come to any conclusion, and now I have new thoughts because of Moscarda - how to get acquainted with your stranger-body. Is it really a stranger, just appearance, or can that other person have their own thoughts and emotions.

Here I think about the series Severance, where characters are divided into 2 separate personalities - one for work and one for the rest of life, and their thoughts/ideas never intersect. They have nothing in common except their body. I wonder if Moscarda also perceives that stranger as completely separate from himself.

And I have many questions about his wife! It feels like she's the reason for the protagonist's disorder. She's not presented here as a close person, as a "better half," "love" - but rather as someone who pushed him towards psychological problems, towards an existential crisis, and she doesn't let him "be alone." I wouldn't be surprised if his wife becomes his alter-ego, but one that represents the feminine manifestation in a man.

And I have questions: does the name Gengé have some special meaning, why did his wife call him that - will the protagonist explain this to us later?

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